I’m going to drive myself crazy & probably bring us down. 
Why is seeing the truth becoming so hard to do? I’m trying to tell the difference between what’s false and what’s true- but I really can’t tell anymore. 
HELP ME SEE!! bleh ugh am I gullible or paranoid? 

You piece of shit.

You could suggest something nice for once… Like visiting me or wanting to see me or planning something out more than once in a blue one, why can’t it be a normal occurrence? Or finding a way to get out of things just to see me, because I know I do that. Screw your go with the flow shit. It’s not a great thing to have all the time. Make a plan for once. Sorry in advanced, I had to get that out.

YEA I am going to blabber on about my overflowing emotions and how life sucks when you can’t get what you want.
USELESS ANNOYING UNNECESSARY REDUNDANT TORTUOUS UGLY EMOTIONS
you are the epitome of the everlasting burning flame in my heart
and you broke my heart into pieces
woe is me 

…I hope you see this Sharlotte and that you’re laughing, cause this was for you ;)

The certain things I promised not to let you know, 
you’ve got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat, 
not to let you know 
I never let you, never let you, never… 

So would I be out of line, if I said I miss you? 

I wish I brought all my mixed CDs with me. I never thought they would come into good use, because the songs are so old. But I could definitely use a few good oldies. None of this techno/dub/whatever the fuck is being made these days. And my music folder has been completely obliterated some time ago. I want some blink 182, taking back sunday, fall out boy, incubus shits up in here.. I thought I was over with them, I guess not. I need that music to help me write this essay, like now. I think I tried to not listen to them anymore so I could leave high school memories behind, but yea… I miss it a lot. I WANT MY CDs!!!